Alone and isolated, I grew despondent. I didn’t care if the Navy broke my spirit. I hated the pain this spirit caused me. I hated the tension it created in my life, between what’s in the flesh and what’s not, and the way it drove me to release this tension. I hated this spirit—I hated [...]
Declining to indulge in the true opiate of the masses, I drifted into a little pipe dream of my own. Confronted by the angelic aspect of my shadow, was I split down the middle as his sword came crashing down upon my head and cleaved me into two apparently identical clones of my original self. [...]
Oddly enough, I needed my pain as much as this crutch needed me, as I had the distinct feeling Nature was driving me to lose my self in some yet unknown task. If only I could let go of my self, long enough to taste how it felt to forget about oneself, I believed I [...]
